My little white cottage ...

 Good morning ...

And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it unto one of these my brethren, even these least, ye did it unto me. Matthew 25:40

I have to kind of laugh at myself at times, but shouldn't we all ... We go wrong when we take ourselves to seriously. Well, at least I do.

Case in point when I walked through the house I now live in, I thought to myself, how very small it was. The house is 2000 sq. feet. But in my defense, my farmhouse was 3500 sq. feet. So it really did feel small. Little ... Hence the name My little white cottage. Trust me when I say this, there is nothing little about this place. I love this house! It is laid out so well... It is a perfect functioning home. However, it was a huge undertaking!  I felt like I could do it. And for the most part it is done! 

I invested a lot of money in this place... Not so much on the pretty stuff, more on the inner workings of the home. I did not want to do this later. So this home is secure ... New plumbing , fixtures, flooring, grading, gravel drive .. The list is long! You see, THIS home was going to be my forever home. But alas, my heart can not be where it is not full, not inspired, and broken on an almost  daily basis.

When I moved here there were 2 dogs living underneath this place. No, they were not strays, much to my surprise!  2 very abused animals mostly just neglected, in every conceivable way.

A beautiful German Shepherd pup, about 6 months old, or there about. He, drug himself around as his rear legs were very damaged. I would later find out that he was hit by a car at a very young age, and the owners did nothing for him. As in no treatment. Leaving him to mend back together as is. 

And his friend a white fluffy GP mix. I thought my how fat she is. Sadly, she was not fat, she was a rack of bones under all that fur.

Anyone who knows anything about me, they know I am an animal lover, with dogs being my spirit animal. So an instant bond was forged. Thanks Dad!

I secretly started feeding them good food, just the same as I feed my 2 dogs. Meat, dry food, veggies, fresh chicken, beef, sardines and eggs.

I also stated giving the shepherd 1 Glucosamine Chondriitn daily. That and exercise. He got so he could put some weight on rear. He began to hop, as he could not walk normal.

So fast forward to today, he can walk, (with a limp) not only can he walk but he can run! He is intelligent and eager to learn an please!  Yes, I still feed him and his sissy... She is now blind in one eye. Yes, her owner watched it and did nothing. And now I am feeding 2 more dogs on a non daily schedule. So 6 dogs! But I feel that I have done the best I could for them. And now they have a pretty good life! 

But what I realized through all of this is, I did not have a choice ... I was put here ... I have excepted that. And just as they have a pretty good life, I do too!

As much as it hurts my heart, it also fills it up. And at times I am very torn about leaving, and leaving them all behind. Abandoned ... Seems so selfish, when they all give such unconditional love and loyalty.

I want y'all to know that I am not leaving just because the above mentioned ... No, there is more. 

You see I got sick in November, refusing to go to my doctor, as she is an hour away. I figured it was the Wu flu and no need. Did I have every symptom? No! I was sick for about 3 days. I will not bore you with the details, other than to say how I feel ... The Wu flu is a scam! Just one old ladies opinion.

However, what that showed me was just how small my foot print was! I was literally just passing through 90 % of my home. Not utilizing any part of that 90%!

So I thought I would move back closer to my doctor and oral surgeon. I have struggled with this decision for a long time. 

It will mean living very small (something I have never done). And by small, I am thinking around 800 to 900 sq. feet. Very few possessions, like clothes, furnishings, decor, craft supplies. And so on. I am ok with it ... You see I had started almost 10 years ago giving things away, decluttering, and living a lot less stressed life.

Leaving my farm and all of its furnishings behind was very freeing. You see I let go of the possessions that I had carried with me for 30 + years of my life. And to be honest it all had bad energy at that point anyway. So! It felt great!

I will do the same thing again this time, only I will donate most everything to the Salvation Army.

To be honest I'm excited about living an almost minimalist life. 

I have realized over these many years, that what is truly important in life, is not what you have, not who you know or where you live. What is truly important, is to simply LIVE your life. And live it, so it is pleasing to God.  

Blessings from the cottage ...